i am feeling extremely ambivalent about this exam period.
on the one hand, i enjoy a stint away from the high life.
away from the most exclusive shopping centers, the most expensive restaurants, the poshest clubs, the trendiest bars. quiet and alone in my room, with the occassional eurodance or retro music, alone with my books.
on the other hand, the incorpotation of a challenging conceptual body of information into my brain can have its frustrations. a temporary lapse of memory, or a failure to grasp a concept can really annoy me.
i havent gotten into the full swing of working yet. i have come to the tentative conclusion that i had peaked in my academic performance in TEE; i am now a mere vestige of my intellectual past. i also feel damn cheated. whenever i work my guts out, i usually aspire to the best performance one can get. say for TEE, i aimed to attain the top percentile in the state, which (fortunately) i did manage. however now i am settling for a mere 4 2:2s. this is predominantly due to my lack of consistent work all year, hence it can be said to be a pit of my own digging, but i still feel cheated.
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i have decided that come the next academic year, there would be a realignment of my priorities. i shall spend less on clothes, restaurants and clubs. after all, i daresay ive seen most of what London has to offer in those regards. i shall travel more. baby, you still gotta think about what destinations in Europe you wanna visit when ure here okie? we'll go anywhere you like. contrary to what conventional perception, travelling is a far more afforadable hobby than haute couture and the high life. having said that, i plan to live the high life in other countries too. merely a change in spatial and temporal dimension =)
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i think it is extremely important for someone to be aware of their abilities and the limit of it. to the pedant, or perhaps lawyer, the second criterion might seem superfluous - one cannot accurately know his abilities without knowing the limit of it. but i have elevated it to a seperate condition in itself as i believe it needs to be brought to people's attention.
i daresay i know very few who fulfil both conditions. in fact, my realisation is that the majority of my friends in singapore are aware of the former, but not the latter. of course, i shant name-names. this is linked with the argument of unfulfilled potential, an argument which you all know i disdain with a passion. "oh i didnt study hard enough", "i played too hard". fuck off dickhead. what is to say that if you had studied hard enough, you still couldnt cut it.
conversely, most of my friends in london seem to be aware of the latter but not the former. this sign of humility can be taken to be something positive, but i disagree. one has to be aware of what he is capable of, and not merely what he is NOT capable of. the positive criterion is the general criterion, the negative is a refinement or amplification which requires cognisance. it is the awareness of both that brings about a genuine appreciation of one's capability
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i have become aware of the fact that judges and academics in the legal and philosophical field tend to enjoy indulging in pleonasms. this means (loosely) to use more words than is necessary to express an idea. simple examples of this are "i saw it with my own eyes" or "could you repeat that again?".i got it the first time dimwit. of course the pleonasms i have come encountered over the last few days are far more sophisticated and convoluted than this. but its still annoying.
on the one hand, i enjoy a stint away from the high life.
away from the most exclusive shopping centers, the most expensive restaurants, the poshest clubs, the trendiest bars. quiet and alone in my room, with the occassional eurodance or retro music, alone with my books.
on the other hand, the incorpotation of a challenging conceptual body of information into my brain can have its frustrations. a temporary lapse of memory, or a failure to grasp a concept can really annoy me.
i havent gotten into the full swing of working yet. i have come to the tentative conclusion that i had peaked in my academic performance in TEE; i am now a mere vestige of my intellectual past. i also feel damn cheated. whenever i work my guts out, i usually aspire to the best performance one can get. say for TEE, i aimed to attain the top percentile in the state, which (fortunately) i did manage. however now i am settling for a mere 4 2:2s. this is predominantly due to my lack of consistent work all year, hence it can be said to be a pit of my own digging, but i still feel cheated.
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i have decided that come the next academic year, there would be a realignment of my priorities. i shall spend less on clothes, restaurants and clubs. after all, i daresay ive seen most of what London has to offer in those regards. i shall travel more. baby, you still gotta think about what destinations in Europe you wanna visit when ure here okie? we'll go anywhere you like. contrary to what conventional perception, travelling is a far more afforadable hobby than haute couture and the high life. having said that, i plan to live the high life in other countries too. merely a change in spatial and temporal dimension =)
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i think it is extremely important for someone to be aware of their abilities and the limit of it. to the pedant, or perhaps lawyer, the second criterion might seem superfluous - one cannot accurately know his abilities without knowing the limit of it. but i have elevated it to a seperate condition in itself as i believe it needs to be brought to people's attention.
i daresay i know very few who fulfil both conditions. in fact, my realisation is that the majority of my friends in singapore are aware of the former, but not the latter. of course, i shant name-names. this is linked with the argument of unfulfilled potential, an argument which you all know i disdain with a passion. "oh i didnt study hard enough", "i played too hard". fuck off dickhead. what is to say that if you had studied hard enough, you still couldnt cut it.
conversely, most of my friends in london seem to be aware of the latter but not the former. this sign of humility can be taken to be something positive, but i disagree. one has to be aware of what he is capable of, and not merely what he is NOT capable of. the positive criterion is the general criterion, the negative is a refinement or amplification which requires cognisance. it is the awareness of both that brings about a genuine appreciation of one's capability
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i have become aware of the fact that judges and academics in the legal and philosophical field tend to enjoy indulging in pleonasms. this means (loosely) to use more words than is necessary to express an idea. simple examples of this are "i saw it with my own eyes" or "could you repeat that again?".i got it the first time dimwit. of course the pleonasms i have come encountered over the last few days are far more sophisticated and convoluted than this. but its still annoying.
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